The Rest of the Story

Thank you all so much for your encouraging and wonderful comments! I always know that there will be someone to celebrate with in the internets.

So, I'm sure you all want to hear the rest of the story.

We made plans to meet at C.h.i.l.i.'s at 1:00 on Friday. We spent the previous night in Phoenix so we drove up that morning. It was a horribly long two hours and I kept praying that there wouldn't be an accident on I-17 there is only one way up and one way down. But of course God kept our path clear and we got there with no problems.

We pulled into our garage by 12:15 and by 12:45 I was pacing the house, ready to go. Of course Mr. Sparky was laughing because we live right behind the restaurant and it only takes a few minutes to get there. But I threatened life or limb and we left.

By 1:00 they weren't there and I was starting to get nervous. The hostess kept asking us if we wanted to go ahead and get a table and we kept saying no we'll wait. I wanted to shoot her in the head! Just shut up about the table already!

Mr. Sparky said that if they weren't there by 1:15 we would leave and call them later. I, of course, was very much NOT ok with this plan. By 1:10 I was starting to tear up and literally thought I was going to puke all over the lobby. But my husband was good and kept calming me down. I went to the bathroom to wash my hands (that's what I do when I'm nervous) and call my friend S. She said we should call them (except all I have is there home number) and I went back to the lobby to tell Mr. Sparky I was going to call.

I kept thinking this was a scam, or maybe she really isn't pregnant and they are trying to get money out of us (which legally we can't give them anything anyway) or maybe they just got scared and didn't want to meet us yet. Of course the whole is she really pregnant thing is still wandering around in my head, even though I know she is and it is foolish. I can't help it.

So, at the exact moment I was getting ready to call, they walked in. And a whole new set of nerves joined the mixed. We were really excited because she brought the father with her and we really wanted to meet him but weren't sure he was going to come. We sat down and ordered drinks and tried to look at the menus without letting the conversation fall flat. There were a few moments of awkward silences throughout the meal but that is to be expected. It's an odd conversation you have with two people you've never meet and want them to give us their baby. Very odd indeed.

Anyway, everything went very well, we are all on the same page as far as contact and how the baby should be raised. They are both believers which was huge for us and the fact that we are was huge for them. Mr. Sparky asked if they had or will be meeting with anyone else and they said they were going to look into an agency but after meeting us they both felt really comfortable with the placement and felt like they didn't need to look any further.

We told them as we were getting ready to leave that we didn't want to pressure them into a decision (even though they already told us they want us at all the dr's appointments and at the delivery) and they said they did want to go home and talk about it, but it's pretty much a done deal. Of course they could always change their minds, they do have six months and she hasn't heard the heartbeat, felt the baby move or seen her stomach grow yet. So we'll see. We've got many people praying for this situation and God is in control, so whatever happens will happen and we are guarding our hearts.

But I've already fallen in love.

I'll post the ultrasound pictures after the appointment this week and will let you know how much more in love I've fallen with our baby once we've actually seen his/her little heartbeat.